Time to talk day

Well today is a good a day than any to have a bit of a offload about mental health and in particular what’s been happening to me .

It is nothing to be ashamed of though this last week I’ve certainly felt different .

My thoughts and feelings have ranged from depression ,guilt ,despair and to be honest failure .

As many know ive had a lot on my plate. Though when haven’t I .Well it would seem this pressure cooker has reached its limit and come to a head last week .

I have been having what is called pseudoseizures  or non eplicitic attacks .  yep I hadn’t a clue either what this was .

Its been very scary as my whole body has been affected which has fed into the emotions and feelings I described above .

I had 2 hospital visits and my children had to witness me in a bad way .

There’s a lot more I can say but my head still very fuzzy .

I am now under mental health home intervention team and have upcoming assessments etc .

In short I have reached my limit and as a coping mechanism my mind shut down and experienced dissociation .

It really is quite remarkable  the impact stress has on the body both emotionally and physically .

I have tried to be   supermum for too long and sorry but I need to hand the cape in lol

Its ok to not be ok and reach out for help .

This last week with no kids ive had chance to take stock and breathe .

Changes need to be made and hopefully the wheels are in motion .

I have had years of coping being strong and have managed to control my depression .

But this has shown me we as humans really have our limits.

I don’t know what the future will hold and how much these seizures etc are going to be present but its been a wake up call .

Time to slow down ,prioritise, self care and BREATHE.