One woman’s fear is a another woman’s weapon…

”When I look back on my relationship with Kathy I marvel at how naive she was, how little she knew.

But then, she always thought she had everything: the job; the baby; the friends; and him. She thought she was safe. She thought that nothing could touch her perfect world.

She should never have trusted me.”

A woman sets out to destroy a female colleague in this chilling psychological thriller.

I read this within a day mainly on my way home from The Hampstead and Highgate Literacy Festival where I listened to a talk from authors of psychological thrillers.This was a great experience and im really pleasd I went as I think previously I may not have had that confidence. The author line up was Sophie mckensie ,Jane Lythell and Tamar Cohen.

Unfortunately for unforeseen circumstances Sophie wasn’t there.

I have read a lot of sophies books but hadn’t read the works of Jane and Tamar .So I brought a copy of their books which I got signed 🙂 and they were both inspirational clever lovely ladies .

Back to the book now … I was so eager to start especially after hearing Jane read a extract .She already made Heja sound very eerie and a character bound to get under your skin. I was not disappointed ,the book flips from her point of view and Kathys so as a reader we get right into each womens head. Heja is incredibly cold and does things that make you ask why is she doing that ? what is she trying to achieve? she is indeed a calculating eerie character and not someone I would like in my life that’s for sure.

You wonder how Kathy is so oblivious to whats clearly happening under her nose but isn’t life so busy and stressful we don’t notice everything?

I could really relate to Kathy espeicially when Jane described her as a LEAKY person ,this made me giggle but mainly because that’s how I see myself ,I show my emotions and wear my heart on my sleeve .Also her angst and love for her son I think all mothers can understand .

The contrast between these 2 women couldn’t be any more dramatic so the question is what is Hejas problem with Kathy??

Jane said how some readers felt smpthaty for Heja and she wanted to know if I did …my answer is I don’t know .She was obvioslu a very unhappy women for reasons you will need to read to find out .Human emtions can make you do strange crazy things and not think rationally but as a mum I felt more towards Kathy and her family .

This is a cleverly written gripping chilling book and especially for  a debut novel .

I really recommend and look forward to her next release in January 2015.


The bestselling author of Close My Eyes returns with a chilling psychological thriller. Julia has always been the friend that Livy turns to when life is difficult. United fifteen years ago by grief at the brutal murder of Livy’s sister, Kara, they’ve always told each other everything. Or so Livy thought. So when Julia is found dead in her home, Livy cannot come to terms with the news that she chose to end her own life. The Julia that Livy knew was vibrant and vivacious, a far cry from the selfish neurotic that her family seem determined to paint her as. Troubled by doubt but alone in her suspicions, Livy sets out to prove that Julia was in fact murdered. But little does she realise that digging into her best friend’s private life will cause her to question everything she thought she knew about Julia. And the truth that Livy discovers will tear the very fabric of her own life apart.

I am a  HUGE fan of Sophie Mckenzies books and this is another author Estelle introduced me to. Again its so cool having a daughter who shares my passion of books . I have read a few of her teenage books and each time ive read in one night hooked from the start so I couldn’t wait to grab a copy of this.

The cover is incredibly chilling .  We are thrown straight into the deep end of knowing not all is perfect in Livys life and even her best friend is irritating her but then she is found dead .

This book is chilling leaves you second guessing each character that Livy meets ,there are lots of twists and turns that make for a really exiting read.

There are chapters which are the killers pov and this makes for disturbing reading especially as we don’t know his identity yet. He explains his motives and needs to kill and his emotions .

I started to think it was one character to then think no its someone else .

A very tense book which plays on your thoughts and fears .

Im very excited because as I was reading this I saw a tweet about a authors event next week and sophie is one of them so im looking forward to seeing her and hearing her talk about psychological thrillers .


Bree is a loser, a wannabe author who hides behind words. But when she’s told she needs to start living a life worth writing about, The Manifesto on How to Be Interesting is born. Six steps on how to be interesting. Six steps that will see her infiltrate the popular set, fall in love with someone forbidden and make the biggest mistake of her life.

Estelle recently read this and demanded I read this next ! Its preety cool havinga  daughter to share books with and shes 12 and these young adult books are so brilliant for her understaning of the world which lets face it scares even us adults.

I read this in one day its brilliant ,it has such a important vital message to it..BE YOURSELF  BE UNIQUE AND DIFFERENT AND EMBRACE IT!

It has some funny and rude parts but also sad and sensitive parts.

It covers lots of important issues which can often arise when growing up.

Really enjoyable read which Estelle said she could really relate to.


When Monica is offered a three-month placement in LA, she knows that for the sake of her career she must accept it – even though it means leaving behind nine-year-old Ruby, toddler Luca and her husband Daniel.

She hires Ursula as a housekeeper and nanny during her absence, although the older woman is oddly reluctant to agree to a childcare position. What is the dark secret in Ursula’s past, which has left her so closed-off and reserved? Will her growing attachment to Ruby bring it to the surface? And will Monica regret leaving the children in her care?

Thank you to Bookbridgr for my copy .

I love the cover and was intrigued to read this having never read any of this authors books.

I was captured instantly with this book reading how Monica a career driven mum of 2 had a huge decision to make .We are introduced to Urslula who we know has a secret to hide and was prepared for a huge revelation to disrupt this familys life .

However for me this didn’t meet my expectations,it had potential .I found it dragged at certain points and would have liked to have read more of monicas story ,how she felt being away from her family ?

However it was a sensitive book telling the impact and aftermath of domestic abuse and this did explain Ursulas reluctance to engage with the children. It was a sweet and positive ending in how there was hope for Ursula and a brighter future and putting her past behind her .


I don’t need the perfect guy.

I don’t need candlelight or roses.

Honestly, I don’t even need a real bed…

Ellie Kolstakis is a twenty-one-year-old virgin.

She’s not religious. She’s not waiting for marriage. She’s not even holding on for The One.

Ellie’s just unlucky.

But with her final year of university coming to an end, she’s determined to shed her V-plates, once and for all.

And she’s ready to try anything – from submitting to her domineering Greek mother’s matchmaking skills to embracing the world of nether-waxing trends (no-one wants a ‘Hitler’) and even YouTube tutorials on how to give a ‘blow gift’ (it should never be a job).

After all, what has she got to lose? Well, besides the obvious.

Firstly thank you to Shane at Mills and Boon for sending me a copy to review.

I wasn’t sure what to expect in all honesty but its so exciting to discover new authors.

This book is FUNNY and I mean FUNNY … I had to put my hand over my mouth to stop howling very loud on the bus .

We go on a journey with Ellie and its a personal one …we witness her first waxing experience amongst other intimate events .

I think there are a  lot of pre conceived ideas about virgins that are adults ,which is kind of sad as its such a big deal and why is it seen more normal in society to lose your virginity under 18 than above ?

This book will make you turn all those ideas on their head and embrace the fact that this student is still  a VIRGIN despite trying .

Despite the fact I had kids young I could honestly relate to Ellie as I was a very late starter in comparison to others lol .I was the one who boys asked to hook up with my friends …still not much as changed really lol

I think this Is a original and refreshing concept and I really enjoyed it .

Go and read it …you may even learn a thing or two ;P








A good day

I am very aware a lot of what I blog tweet post etc can be negative ,albeit its honest and from the heart .Its so easy to not point out when you are feeling positive etc.So after a all round positive day in which I woke up on a mon feeling unusually alive and ready for the day!! After I dropped lynx off at school I went straight to the pool which I know is one of ways I manage my mental health and after 6 weeks of not going I as ready to get in that water. Its just space and time to clear my mind which is always so busy.

I also arranged a meeting /interview for some upcoming volunteer work .

Nothing amazing happened today I have just felt happy …on the verge of manic which is one my concerns with my mental health is that I can have extreme highs and lows .  But I can deal with that ,it felt good to have a clear head today and feeling positive .




Did you request a autistic boy mummy?

When we was walking to the chemist earlier lynx asked me the above question ,when you was pregnant did you request a autistic boy mummy or did I come out wrong ?

my heart dropped to hear this so my arms quickly went round my little man and I said the following;

well I wanted a very special boy and you being autistic just gives you that extra helping of being special so I think I got even more than I ever wanted .

The smile on his face 🙂





“My husband shot himself in our bedroom. When I got home, Emma was standing at the bottom of the stairs, screaming.” Since that awful day, Laura Brandon’s little girl hasn’t uttered a word. When a psychiatrist suggests that Emma won’t talk because she’s terrified of men, Laura is guilt-ridden. To help Emma, she needs to know what unspeakable secret lies behind her husband’s suicide. Laura thought her family was perfect, but her quest leads her to a shocking truth. For her child’s sake, should her father’s sins be kept silent? For fans of JODI PICOULT, this is a must read. “Diane Chamberlain is a marvellously gifted author. Every book she writes is a gem.” Literary Times


After wining a proof copy of this authors book which is released in January I was intrigued to read her other books. So I picked this up at the library .

I loved this book it covered so many areas which are close to my heart so felt an emotional connection with the story.  

This is a book that gets you thinking and questioning .It made me go ahh and gasp when the story  become clear as it all starts as a bit of  a mystery .

I finished this few days ago and its still on my mind especially the parts in the psychiatric hospital .

I have found a new hot author who write with such emotion about very sensitive topics .





grey clouds

I suffer from depression always have and always will and It comes and goes.

Well its here and I can deal with it and try and see light at end of the tunnel as I can rationalise why im feeling low .

We are reaching the very end of the school holidays and I am beyond exhausted which hasn’t been helped by recent events with my neighbours and lynxs recent bad sleeping .

I am getting no exercise which I know helps my muggy head .

I haven’t had a minute to myself to think straight . Been snapping at lynx then feel guilty and crying .

I always find back to school hard as its another year older ,step closer to xmas and these things I struggle with.

With back to school comes exencse which I get no hel with ,,because I had kids with a man who thinks its ok to buy fags bt nt support hs kids. So that’s pressure etc.

The last 6 weeks there has been little structure which has been good and bad and then wed I got to be up and out by 7.45 with lynx …

Then theres the whole back to school stress with lynx and the challenges I face and will have to face to fight for him.

Right now I have no fight in me to even brush my hair … my eyebrows and moustache are on my face with a passion as not had that done over the hols .

The little things add up.

The little things that keep you sane …whatever that Is.

The last week I have cried at EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just feel flat ,tired ,drained and very negative .

I am hoping this will ease but then I know il be shattered with trying to fit everything in with school run.

Being a single mum is bloody hard …I don’t see beyond that atm .

I have also felt anger rejection and frustration at people  and im lonely.

Even Estelle don’t want to spend time with me .

I havnt even  picked  a book up today ….that bad .

Anyway heres to things getting bit lighter and clearer.








The Bonneville Hotel is the best kept secret in Mayfair: its art deco suites and glittering ballrooms a former home-away-from-home for royalty and film stars alike. Recent years haven’t been kind, but thanks to Events Manager Rosie, the Bonneville is reclaiming some of its old cachet as a chic retro-glam wedding venue.

While Rosie’s weddings are the ultimate in romance, Rosie herself isn’t; she’s focused on the details, not the dramas. But when the hotel owner appoints his eccentric son Joe to the Bonneville staff, Rosie finds herself up against an unprecedented challenge: a rival whose predilection for the unconventional could derail not only Rosie’s own career, but the most elaborate, high-profile wedding the Bonneville has ever seen.

Thank you to The book bar/Quercus for sending me yet another beautiful book .

This review probably wont sell it as much as I would like as I usually write a review straight away but wordpress has been playing up .

I have not read any of her previous books and that’s the great thing with discovering new authors you get to add more titles to your tbr list.

I whizzed through this and loved all of it.

I felt like I was part of this story and there at the hotel due to the fantastic descriptive writing .

I could relate to Rosie in that she was quite shut off with her emotions due to being hurt  in the past and not having the most romantic of boyfriends! Yet she was doing what some may consider a very romantic job ,bringing peoples dream weddings to life .She had her own orderly ways of doing things and it worked ….or so she thought.

In comes Joe who is about to threaten her control of things in the hotel and turn things on their head …but is he a blessing in disguise or in his case beach wear .

This book left me all warm and fuzzy and I loved Joe and his outlook on the world and he had a way of making simple things special .

A romantic funny touching read .

Published on 11th September