I’m having one of those days where I’m really fed up and grumpy .i have no patience for lynx even the sound of Estelle’s coughing is stressing me out .
I stood there crying while washing up just really feel low 😦 I know a lot of it is because I’m poorly.
But sometimes il b honest I’m fed up of my life’s situation ,worrying about money ,the constant pressures of being a mum.lynx not sleeping and his constant demands .
The stresses with the ex ,a house that never seems tidy so I feel like a failure daily .
I genuinely have no idea how long id ever this house will be decorated because of financial reasons and also lack of time and people .
I never get bored bt today that’s pArtly how I’m feeling of it all .
Yes I don’t need a man to make me happy bt I am lonely ! I miss affection being desired even being held as a woman .
The people who say u don’t need anyone tend to be the people who have people if that makes sense.
Sometimes like today I’m fed up of being alone in every sense .
Just want to lay down and sleep /cry.
I suffer with mental illness and my thoughts do get erratic so this is a very honest and frank account of how I’m feeling .
Yes I’m grateful for all I have but I have every right to say today it’s just not enough .